I have said this so many times in numerous blog posts already this year, but I am going to say it again: fuck, it’s been a hard year.
Anyway, it’s was quite hard to enjoy the time we had running up to our wedding because we felt like we were constantly battling through all of these ‘things’ that came our way, never mind having the energy to find joy during the times in between.
It’s safe to say though, now that we are married and the stress of the whole planning process and the nerves that we felt a month-or-so before are gone, we have stared to find happiness.
One thing that has made both of us happy is that Jeanne started horse riding. Now, this might not sound like much and you’re probably wondering wtf I do while she rides but every Saturday is truly magical.
Every Saturday we wake up, get dressed and set off to Green Acres International Equestrian Estate, when I get to cosy up to all the gorgeous ponies and Jeanne gets a dose of pure freaking happiness. I really can’t remember a time this year where she has smiled this big – apart from our wedding day.
Honestly, I think Jeanne has felt so lost after being diagnosed with epilepsy. She could not exercise any more, driving was out of the question and she really felt like she lost her freedom, and along with it, her happiness.
I took up roller derby earlier this year, and it has become ‘my thing’. I think all couples should have their own thing that they can do. Something that makes you happy, gets your blood pumping and makes you feel good. To me, this is roller derby. It has been a bright light in the dark for me when it comes to my anxiety and depression, and my chosen form of exercise, as it’s so much more fun than going to the gym.
Jeanne had gym. It might not have been the most exciting thing in the world but she had it. Then she didn’t, and I could see it slowly but surely taking it’s toll on her, both mentally and physically.
Just before we got married, Jeanne spoke to me about horse riding. Now, horses and horse riding are used in many amazing therapies, which is why I thought it would be a great activity for her to get involved in – even with her epilepsy.
The original yard we went to unfortunately was not very helpful and never got back to us, but we met an amazing trainer there who followed up and pointed us in the direction of Green Acres – and we are so glad she did.
An old yard that has been given a new name and a new look, Green Acres International Equestrian Estate – I feel – is one of the best things that has ever happened to Jeanne. As well as her amazing trainer (you know who you are). She looks forward to going every weekend, and is just as excited about it as I am about roller derby, which makes me feel as though she has finally found her very own ‘thing’.
For me, however, I get to share her ‘thing’ with her and, seeing as I have been surrounded by horses and horse riding all my life, spending time on a yard is something I am use to and enjoy just as much. What makes it even better, the people are divine and are people we like to spend time with, which is just a bonus considering – don’t hate me for saying this – that the equestrian world is known for being clicky (to put it nicely).
Now we are just taking in all this happiness, and see it as one amazing thing that was meant to happen and become a part of our lives. We are lapping up every moment, I am enjoying seeing Jeanne fall in love with her ‘thing’ and life in general again, and we look forward to ending this year on a high note.
Talk to me! What is your ‘thing’? What makes you happy? Are you finding happiness again? Let me know in the comment section below.